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Plenty That He Doesn’t Know At All (H/Hr Ficlet)
by sarah (herminia)
at July 31st, 2007 (06:38 pm)
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Title: Plenty That He Doesn’t Know At All
Author: herminia
Rating: PG-13 / Fluff—I think!
Ships: Harry/Hermione
Word Count: 746
Summary: Inspired by a line from Jon McGregor’s So Many Ways to Begin: No, but really, I mean, he said, bring his leg up towards hers, running his hand down her thigh, there must be plenty that I don’t know at all. Takes place during HBP—what might have happened if Ron and Lavender hadn’t intruded.

X-posted to blueflame_hhr, lj user=harmony_fiction>, hhr_danemma, delusionalfans, harryhermione, hghp, and my personal journal.



He finds her in the first unlocked classroom he tries, finds her perched on the teacher’s desk, her posture rigid and her expression unreadable. “Oh, hello, Harry,” she says in a brittle voice. “I was just practicing.” A swarm of brightly twittering canaries flies in circles around her head, calling to mind a (very feathery) model of the solar system.*

“Yeah… they’re—er—really good,” he mutters, doing a poor job covering up the fact that he has no idea what to say to her. He wonders whether there’s the slightest chance she hadn’t noticed Ron, that she had merely left the room because the party was a little too rowdy—

—there isn’t.

Ron seems to be enjoying the celebrations.”

“Er… does he?”

“Don’t pretend you didn’t see him,” she snaps. “He wasn’t exactly hiding it, was he?”

“Hermione, look—” he says, hoping that giving his mouth a two-word advantage will somehow jumpstart his brain, give him something to say after ‘Hermione, look—’ but nothing’s coming to mind. He realizes then that he knows precious little about her life before it collided with his own. He doesn’t know how to reach her now. In fact, there must be plenty that he doesn’t know at all. He doesn’t even know her parents’ first names. Doctors, the both of them. Dentists to be precise, but beyond that…? He doesn’t know what they thought of sending their only child off to a school of Witchcraft and Wizardry either, doesn’t even know what Hermione’s own first thoughts on the subject were, if she hemmed and hawed or threw herself into this particular venture with the same dogged determination she devotes to all aspects of her life. Doesn’t even know who her first kiss was—

He stops himself abruptly—don’t go there—and puts his hand on her knee—steadying himself as much as comforting her—and he thinks, with a rare burst of clarity, that he’s not okay with being her second choice, if, indeed, Ron Weasley is her first.

Her eyes are swimming with tears and she’s blinking fast to keep them at bay, waving her hand in front of her eyes and complaining about all the dust in the air. And she says she’s sorry, really, that he has enough on his plate already and she doesn’t want to burden him—to bother him.

He wants to do something about those tears, wants to find the words that will stem the steady flow of them now. “Look,” he begins again, rather lamely, yes, but at least he’s talking. He tells her it’s certainly no bother finding himself cloistered here with her, away from the party punch (strong stuff, that party punch) and noise. All that noise. He needs a moment of quiet now and then, the better to mull things over and sort things out. And he thinks that lightning doesn’t strike twice—that this is The Girl, The Only Girl—and screw Ron—

And he says he doesn’t know why it’s taken him this long to say it—to see it—but he needs her the most and loves her the best.

She stares at him uncomprehendingly. It’s the first time in his life that she hasn’t been in perfect communion with his thoughts, the one time she isn’t able to divine exactly what he needs and why. And there’s that voice in the back of his head that hisses you will lose everything** and he can’t lose her—he can’t—and says so, abruptly, preempting any response she might try to make, any excuses or I’m sorrys, or oh Harrys. He says that he can’t lose her and those panic-stricken moments (how long was everything hanging in the balance?, he wonders—he wonders even now, months later, and has no answer) when he thought she—when she’d been struck down—those moments (or hours or days or entire lifetimes—it had certainly felt like an eternity) before Neville had detected a pulse, those moments he thought he’d gone and lost her for good— “—I’ve never been so scared of anything in my entire life, Hermione—” and that if he thought—if he were to—if she wasn’t in his life anymore—and not only not in his life, but not his—expressly his—. He stops and swallows hard as her wide brown eyes rise to meet his. He doesn’t want to be too late, he doesn’t want to miss It: his chance, a chance to make everything right between them. And is there still a chance? Has there ever been?





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*The first few paragraphs are taken almost (but not quite) word for word from Chapter Fourteen of HBP.
**Loved the way Voldemort delivered that line in Order of the Phoenix. “Harry Potter, you will lose… everything.”

Comments

Posted by: joyfullscroll (joyfullscroll)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 12:09 am (UTC)

Oh if this scene only came true in canon! It'd be my favorite book just because of it. But in movie-verse I have to say my favorite thus far is still HP and the Prisoner of Azkaban. Mainly because it focuses on H & Hr for the most part. GOF didn't really do Hr's help in the tournament justice.

Hope you receive lots of postive reviews. Thanks for posting this. Ja ne!

Posted by: sarah (herminia)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 02:41 am (UTC)
GG - Rory // Hello Boys

Glad you liked it! I'd've been thrilled if Harry and Hermione had sailed in canon, but as it is, fan fiction fills the void pretty well. :-) Thanks for reviewing.

Posted by: rachel (cold_campbells)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 12:28 am (UTC)
H/hr

Really, really nice. I love when little snippets of canon are used to create H/hr pieces that feel oh, so believable and everything about this feels very them, or at the very least what my perception of them is. Great work.

Posted by: sarah (herminia)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 02:42 am (UTC)
GG - Rory // Now You Mention It...

Thanks so much :-) I'm really glad you liked it! I like writing H/Hr "outtakes" myself, so you may see more of these in the future.

Posted by: nit(ya) (asweetdownfall)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 12:35 am (UTC)
with him to the end.

DANG.

That was lovely :D

Posted by: sarah (herminia)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 02:43 am (UTC)
Hermione - Emma // Optimistic

Thank you, Nitya :-)

Posted by: Jean (contrary_lady)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 12:36 am (UTC)
H/Hr:  right > easy

That was just perfect! ♥

Posted by: sarah (herminia)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 02:43 am (UTC)
Hermione - 5 // Ready for Anything

Thanks, Jeannie! I'm really glad you enjoyed it :-)

Posted by: miss extremley high maintenance (kimmy_77)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 12:57 am (UTC)

I loved it!!!!!!!!!!!!

Posted by: sarah (herminia)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 02:44 am (UTC)
H/Hr - 4 // But We Pulled Through

Thanks! I'm glad it hit the spot :-)

Posted by: layla9188 (layla9188)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 01:07 am (UTC)

This was wonderful. If only this did happen.

I REALLY love the execution Voldemort had with that line, as well. In the trailers, it made my spine shiver...and I can't help but connect it with the outcome of H/Hr, not just Sirius.

I can't tell you how overjoyed I am to know you will still be writing Harmony. :)

Posted by: sarah (herminia)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 02:47 am (UTC)
H/Hr - 4 // More of a Physical Being

Thank you, layla :-) I loved that they shot that scene (Harry's possession) in the Ministry of Magic over Hermione's shoulder and that it was the memory of her hugging him that was the first thing that started bringing him back... *sighs* And of course I'll still write Harmony when the mood strikes me--who else would I write? :-)

Posted by: leonhart_17 (leonhart_17)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 01:07 am (UTC)
[hhr] quiet things

awesome job! really really great job! very good job finishing that scene the way it was supposed to be.

Posted by: sarah (herminia)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 02:47 am (UTC)
Hermione - 4 // Time-Out

Thanks--if only it had ended that way in the actual book, right? :-)

Posted by: leonhart_17 (leonhart_17)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 02:52 am (UTC)
[hhr] quiet things

absolutely! but she couldn't have done them justice...so i guess its just as well... :)

Posted by: Catherine Winner (sunrunnersioned)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 11:39 am (UTC)
H/Hr (because I'm not blind)

wow-that was really something! VERY sweet! I should have read this sooner! thx for the amazing fic~!

Posted by: calmacil_20 (calmacil_20)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 02:36 pm (UTC)
HP - H/Hr - Hug

Very nice, Ace. I love it!

Posted by: The adorkable one (demosthenes91)
Posted at: August 1st, 2007 08:19 pm (UTC)
accidental subtext

You know, that particular moment in the book is a real sore point with me, because I remember reading it, then getting really excited because I thought 'finally, we're going to find out what the hell is going on with her.' I thought she and Harry were going to have this fabulously introspective conversation, and maybe, just maybe, we'd get some H/Hr.

And then it devolved into the canary attack.

So thank you for rescuing this, and in such a wonderful way!

He realizes then that he knows precious little about her life before it collided with his own.

It's true, and the same goes for us, the reader. How I wish JKR had taken this opportunity. So, again, thanks!

Posted by: radiotardislive (radiotardislive)
Posted at: January 23rd, 2009 07:24 pm (UTC)
harry potter

AW!! :( Love how you wrote that last paragraph of Harry saying everything, but in indirect speech. Very clever, and I loved the jumps in it, which were.. very Harry! :)

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